Reflections on Newtown

On last Friday, the day of the horrible tragedy in Newtown, Connecticut, I was two days into a visit to my son and daughter-in-law in Nashville, Tennessee.  It was to have been a pre-Christmas celebration, fitted in before the celebration of the actual day that Karen B. and I will have with our dear friend Karen S, who arrives in California on December 25th to stay with us for a few days.  Now the shadow of all those deaths falls on us, on those we hold dear and on those whose loss brings unimaginable pain.  Eugene Peterson says that silence is sometimes the only response:  our silent presence with those who mourn, the only blessing we can offer.
When I am in Nashville, which is often, it is my custom to go to Saturday morning Mass with my friend Kathy.  It is a simple daily Mass at St. Ann’s Catholic Church in Sylvan Park.  On a good morning there might be 20 parishioners present.  As I enter the sanctuary and take a seat, I notice that there is less visiting and more praying than usual, perhaps honoring the dead in their silence.  In the few minutes before the liturgy begins, I raise my eyes to the representation of Jesus on the cross that hangs on the front wall.  I think of the people of Newtown who have flocked to the St. Rose of Lima Church for the prayer vigil that began within just hours of the news.  No doubt there is also a crucifix image like this above their altar. 
Out of the depths of memory I hear the words of Dietrich Bonhoeffer, the German Lutheran pastor and theologian who was imprisoned and finally executed during the Nazi regime.  While in prison, and reflecting on how God might be present in the circumstances of the Third Reich (I don’t have my usual library available here, so forgive me if I’m misrepresenting DB’s context), he wrote in a letter to his best friend, “Only the suffering God can help.”
I also remember what one of my mentors, William Sloane Coffin, wrote ( in a sermon delivered ten days after his 24-year-old son, Alex, died in a car accident.  In intense grief, he gave us all these words I can never forget:  “My own consolation lies in knowing that…when the waves closed over the sinking car, God’s heart was the first  of all our hearts to break.”
Maybe we want to think of God as all-powerful and all-knowing, totally in control of everything and with a plan for each of us.  God the micro-manager!  And maybe that’s an idea of God that’s adequate for the everyday-ness of our lives, although (for me at least) that’s at best a debatable proposition.  How anyone could think that anything about the events of last Friday in Newtown are in any way a reflection of God’s will, or part of some divine plan, is just beyond my comprehension.  (Mike Huckabee, I’m talkin’ to you….)
From where I stand, the God who comforts is the God who enters into our human suffering, fully incarnate in our human life and our death.  God’s broken heart is somehow, in the great mystery of the Incarnation, joined with our own broken hearts.  And so, somehow, the crucified Christ on the wall of St. Ann’s in Nashville is oddly comforting to me, and I hope he is the same to all those who have that image before them in these days.

Moral injury to the body politic

It is a truism that we often come to our insights by circuitous, even unexpected routes.  I never imagined that reading a book about the trauma suffered by combat veterans of the Vietnam war would lead to reflection on the U.S. body politic.  And that this train of thought occurred without the prompting provided by hypertext or Wikipedia is perhaps even more amazing!  (Small rejoicing here from a semi-Luddite.)

As is often the case these days, my exploration began with a mother’s interest in her offspring’s endeavors.  In his field placement as part of his work for a master’s degree in social work, my son counsels veterans, mostly Vietnam-era men, at the vet center in his hometown.  Somewhere I’d seen a reference to the book Achilles in Vietnam  by VA psychiatrist Jonathan Shay, who works with veterans suffering from severe, chronic post-traumatic stress disorder (PTSD).  I thought that reading the book might help me learn about the experiences my son is having in his field work.  I can’t say whether that purpose was accomplished because my son, quite properly, doesn’t share with me his experiences in his counseling work.  But the motivation was sufficient to get me to open the book, and from the first page on, I was completely engrossed in Shay’s compelling analysis.

 Achilles in Vietnam fascinates on more than one level.  With great creativity, Shay sets the story of Achilles in the classic poem The Iliad alongside the story of Vietnam combat veterans as revealed in their own personal narratives.  The similarities in these two stories, occurring millennia apart, go beyond the specifics of battlefield strategies and military organization, beyond even the horror and fear that are part and parcel of war.  Each narrative, whether of Achilles on the outskirts of Troy or of the veteran of reconnaissance patrol on Highway One along the South China Sea, reveals the same kinds of soldiers’ experiences that result in what Shay names as “the undoing of character.”  More significantly, each narrative serves to inform the other, so that appreciation of the Homeric epic is enhanced and deepened by the stories Vietnam combat veterans have to tell us.

However, Shay’s principal concern in writing the book is this:

 “…to put before the public an understanding of the specific nature of catastrophic war experiences that not only cause lifelong disabling psychiatric symptoms but can ruin good character.  I have a specific aim in doing this:  to promote a public attitude of caring about the conditions that create such psychological injuries, an attitude that will support measures to prevent as much psychological injury as possible.  It is my duty as a physician to do my best to heal, but I have an even greater duty to prevent.

Most of this book describes in great detail the evolution of combat trauma, both in The Iliad and in the lives of Shay’s patients.  Only the last 25 pages does he approach questions of possible healing of PTSD (see endnote) and lessons that may be learned toward the goals of treatment and prevention.  He concludes with his proposal for a “species ethic” that includes this rule:  “Refrain from doing that which causes PTSD symptoms and character damage.”

In all, this is the most sobering book I have read in quite some time, with much to feed reflection.  But what has any of this to do with our body politic, or the common life we share as citizens?  I began to get an inkling of an answer to this question even in the opening sentence:  “We begin in the moral world of the soldier — what his culture understands to be right [italics added] — and betrayal of that moral order by a commander.”  Now I’ve never served in the military, never experienced the battlefield variety of combat , but these words called up feelings that seemed somehow familiar.  Betrayal of the moral order by a leader, violation of what we believe to be right…isn’t that what brought millions of us to the streets in February, 2003, to protest, nonviolently and peacefully, as our political leaders were taking our country into an invasion for which no moral ground was apparent? 

Shay notes that there is no one word in English that entirely expresses a culture’s definition of right and wrong.  The ancient Greek word that Homer used, thémis, encompasses meanings conveyed by terms like moral order, convention, normative expectations, ethics, and commonly understood social values.  As an equivalent of thémis, Shay uses the phrase “what’s right” as that which is betrayed, not by just anybody, but by leaders, those in positions of authority.  If we look back into the history of our country honestly and clearly, don’t we see evidence of this sort of betrayal over and over? 

For just a few examples, how about PG&E’s conflicting statements on the San Bruno gas pipeline, or various corporate statements on the Gulf oil spill?  Think of President Bush, Vice President Cheney, national security advisor Rice, Secretary Powell, Secretary Rumsfeld, and so many others invoking ever shifting justifications for invading Iraq.  Or, closer to Shay’s concerns, what of generals who articulate grand schemes with PowerPoints in the safety of the rear echelon, grand schemes that send our brothers and children and spouses into harm’s way for dubious ends?  Recall, sadly, the unfulfilled promises of President Obama to close the Guantanamo detention camp.  How about Congress bailing out an insurance company and preserving tax cuts for extremely well-off people at the same time that millions are losing jobs and homes?  Need I mention certain leaders of the Roman Catholic Church, or assorted Christian evangelical pastors?  These are merely a few instances, in just the past decade, in which leaders in high places with great authority told their fellow citizens what turned out to be — let’s not mince words — lies.  Is not the making of statements with intent to deceive a betrayal of “what’s right”?  How could any of this fail to result in feelings of having been betrayed and abandoned by leaders?

Now it’s certainly the case that the lies of political, corporate, and religious leaders will not have the profound effect of the commander’s betrayal in battle.  I am not claiming anything like that; to do would be to diminish the destructive effects of combat trauma on soldiers.  These are in no way comparable.  Still, the kind of betrayal in which our leaders have engaged has, I believe, resulted in an attenuated form of moral injury.  Just as happens with combat trauma, the cumulative effect of these failures of leaders has been to decrease the capacity for public trust in any leadership to nearly the vanishing point.

A second aspect of moral injury is what Shay terms “shrinkage of the social and moral horizon.”  the continued and prolonged betrayal of “what’s right” leads to a contraction of loyalty, a decline in the sense of connection to those outside one’s immediate circle.  Again, this sounds sadly familiar.  Robert Putnam and others have documented the decline in “social capital” in the United States, as our political parties and religious bodies are becoming more rigidly ideological and insular.  We don’t know any more how to have even a conversation with those who hold views different from our own.  Some of us congregate only in order to mine our grievances.  Even (some would say, especially) in the church, we don’t want to challenge the comfort level attendant on worshipping with people who look, think, and believe the same as we do.  Dr. King, whose birthday we observe this month, claimed that “We are caught in an inescapable network of mutuality, tied in a single garment of destiny.  Whatever affects one directly, affects all indirectly.”  His vision has receded considerably since those days in the Birmingham jail from which he wrote these words.

In combat trauma the betrayal of “what’s right” by leaders and the shrunken social space combine with the grief attendant upon loss of comrades to produce a rage that cannot be quelled.  These circumstances may eventuate in the behavior that Shay describes as “berserk,” in which violent abuses are committed one after another.  Characteristics of the berserk state include the following:



Socially disconnected

Crazy, mad, insane


Cruel, without restraint or discrimination


Devoid of fear

Inattentive to own safety



reckless, feeling invulnerable

Exalted, intoxicated, frenzied

Cold, indifferent

Insensible to pain

Suspicious of friends

Berserk is a ruinous state for combat veterans, who Shay believes are changed forever by it.

Berserking emerges in the body politic only occasionally, thank goodness.   I believe it is currently manifested primarily in the violence of speech.  For examples of berserk speech in our national life, we can point to media figures on the right (Fox) and, regrettably, on the left (MSNBC) as well.  Politicians in both major parties engage in speech that exhibits many of the berserk state’s characteristics.  If you’re skeptical about this statement, just tune in to C-SPAN when Congress is in session, and listen to the so-called debates in both houses.  Even people in the so-called peace movement often use language about those with whom we disagree that belies the beliefs we claim to hold.  The public discourse has been coarsened by all of these practices, and we appear to have diminished our capacity for caring about the well-being of others.  In the extreme, the consistent assault of berserk speech on our ears may well lead to physical violence.  In the wake of the shootings in Tucson, much has been said about the possible influence of violent rhetoric on the alleged shooter.  The motivation for his actions is far from clear, but what is clear is the continued pitched-battle aspect of the commentary on them.  As has been said, words have consequences.

What is the way back from this phenomenon of moral injury to our body politic?  If, as Shay asserts, the essential injuries are moral and social, the central treatment must be moral and social.  In Shay’s work, the essential first step is for the veteran to establish his own safety, sobriety and self-care.  Creating one’s own narrative of the trauma and sharing it with a trustworthy community of respectful listeners may work to help heal the changes in personality and character wrought by the trauma.

I’m not a professional healer of any sort, and I wouldn’t know how to construct the kind of environment or conditions that would facilitate healing the moral injury to our body politic.  As a person of Christian faith, I would like to think that our churches could be places of such healing.  We could start by acknowledging our own contributions, whatever they might be, to the moral injury that afflicts our body politic.  (There’s a reason that most of our liturgies begin with confession.)  Yet, as I look around, I see few religious settings that might desist from their doctrinal (or anti-doctrinal, for that matter) preoccupations long enough to provide the safety and hospitality necessary for the morally injured, who are all of us, to find respite within their walls.  Since Christian hope is a state of mind independent of the state of the world, however, I live in the hope we in the church might be found “a trustworthy community of respectful listeners” to our sisters, our brothers, and even ourselves. 

Shay has written a second book, Odysseus in America, in which he examines, again through the lens of combat veterans’ experience, what it means to return from war to civilian society.  The concluding paragraphs of that work, published in 2002, appear to have been added in the aftermath of the attacks on September 11, 2001.  Shay reports that the veterans in his care, while reliving their own gut-wrenching symptoms, also “reported seeing the light of comprehension coming on in the eyes of family members, neighbors, employers….Like combat vets with PTSD, ordinary Americans had nightmare, intrusive memories, constant obsessive thoughts about airplane and anthrax attacks.  Like combat vets with PTSD, they lost interest in many things they had previously thought very important….They became jumpy and hypervigilant.”  If each of us recalls our own responses to 9/11, perhaps through that experience of moral injury as citizens and human beings, we can find solidarity with these veterans who have suffered so greatly.

Finally, I join Dr. Shay in gratitude for the generosity of those veterans who shared their stories for his book.  Such courage should not go unnoticed.

NOTE:  Shay now prefers the term “moral injury” rather than PTSD, and so I have used the former term in this writing.  For a recent interview with Dr. Shay that enlarges on this point, visit

Why I’m Leaving Facebook

 Occasional blogger abc41 on a momentous decision of cultural resistance:

At age 68 and counting, it’s fair to say that I’ve left much behind over time.  In addition to the obvious (youth, employment, a svelte body, the ability to stay up past 9:00), I’ve called 17 states home and now live in that most rootless of all of them, California.  Rarely have I felt the desire to explain any of my many leave-takings, at least until now.  But given all the public commentary lately about the exploding digital universe, it has seemed a useful exercise to reflect on the decision for my most recent farewell, to the so-called social network Facebook.

It’s not the various privacy concerns that are moving me toward the door.  I figure if a seeker is determined enough, there’s no way these days to preserve privacy in any event.  The amount of unsolicited email and postal mail that arrives daily is testimony to that.  I came to the decision to put Facebook in my past by an entirely different route.  Here’s the story.

I joined Facebook with the encouragement of my son.  We live 2000 miles apart, and I thought it might provide another means of keeping in touch with him:  something that’s extremely important to me.  I opened my account and started acquiring Facebook “friends,” most of whom also live in some of those places I’d left behind.  It was pleasing to reconnect with divinity school classmates and other folks from my past that I didn’t keep up with after all those moves. 

 Pretty soon I found myself spending lots of time reading the posts of my friends, and responses from their friends known to me only by their pictures and comments.  Facebook started to feel more like eavesdropping than like real connection.  Still it might be better than nothing, even if I was learning more about friends (and friends of friends) than I really needed or even wanted to know.

I began to wonder whether this was a good use of my day.  After all, my son and I talk a couple of times a week, and we email whenever we want to share something gleaned from our (online) reading that might be of interest.  So why am I bothering with the rest of Facebook? 

 While I’ve been mulling all this over, others with much more experience and knowledge than mine have been waxing rhapsodic about our “bold new digital world” (to quote a headline from the San Francisco Chronicle of June 13).  According to the writer of an approving story about Facebook, “the company wants to turn the entire Internet into one interconnected ‘social graph.’”  Hmm…the notion of being a dot on a graph doesn’t strike me as very appealing.  What’s interesting to me about others isn’t their capacity for being “interconnected”; it’s their capacity for being differentiated from me and all others.

 In the same issue of the Chronicle, there appeared a review of a new book on Facebook (The Facebook Effect, by David Kirkpatrick).  The reviewer observed that Facebook “seems like entertainment, a way of passing time.”  I began to think about all those unread books on my shelves.  Maybe there are better ways of “passing time” than sitting in front of a pixelated monitor for hours on end.

But the alarm bell rang loud when I read this sentence from the new book:  “Some have gone so far as to say it could evolve toward a crude global brain.”  Think what you like about evolution and its mechanisms, or whether the term “evolve” is accurately applied here.  For me, this is an image of the future that holds no charm whatsoever.  1984, anyone?  Or the Borg of Star Trek lore, about which it was said, “Resistance is futile”?  No thanks!

 Ironically enough, the final nails in the Facebook coffin came from two decidedly old-fashioned ways of “interconnecting”:  a book group, and a conversation with an actual flesh-and-blood person.  The day after the Chronicle articles appeared, I was sitting in a group that meets biweekly to learn together about ways of communicating that engender compassion.  We read together and talk about how to work toward this goal.  That day, in a little book called Compassion by D.P. McNeill, D.A. Morrison, and H.J.M. Nouwen, we read about this practice of Thomas Merton.  A Trappist monk, “he read very few newspapers and never watched television or listened to the radio.”  Yet “he was one of the most influential social critics of the sixties.”  How did Merton come by his knowledge of the world’s suffering?  It was “from letters written by friends for whom particular events had personal significance.”  I tried to remember, and couldn’t, the last time I had written a personal letter.  Might it be a better use of time than reading about what someone had for breakfast?

As it happened, on the day after this meeting, I got together with a friend who is also a pastor.  He is generous with his time for conversation about my continuing quest toward understanding the traditions of my faith.  Somehow we got on the topic of digital communications, and he told me that he writes his sermons in longhand – no neatly typed pages of manuscript, just his handwritten words.  He’s been doing it this way for more than 30 years.  Yet another example of a time-honored practice, and maybe it accounts in part for the thoughtful nature of his preaching.  In tribute to him, I’ve written this piece in longhand and notice how it helps me focus on what I’m saying right now.  The “global brain” would never stand for such inefficiency!

 So, taking all of this together, I’ve decided to say goodbye to Facebook.  I’m far from being an anarchist, but like Emma Goldman, “I don’t want to be part of your revolution.”  I’m trading in this multimillion member faux community, that to me remains abstract and fleshless, an idea rather than a reality.  Give me instead the genuine, messy, imperfect community that consists of real, whole people – people with actual bodies I can put my arms around if they need a hug.  (I might need one too, but I don’t think my laptop is going to sprout arms any time soon.)

I haven’t totally given up the digital world, and I’ll be glad to hear from any of my old Facebook “friends” who want to stay in touch.  I wish all of you well.  Email still works (abcarey41 —, I have a telephone, and the truly adventurous could try writing me a letter (email me for address and phone number).  As the authors of Compassion wrote, “Letters bring life back to a human dimension.”  God knows, the world might need restoration of the human dimension even more than “universal connectivity,” whatever that is.  Some of us could even get together for coffee sometime.  When two or three are gathered together, who knows what might happen?

Too good not to share

As an erstwhile sojourner with the United Church of Christ, I find great joy in the writings of the incomparable Donna Schaper, currently pastor of Judson Memorial Church in NYC. Her latest reflection in the denomination’s daily devotional series rang so true for me; maybe for you too (who among us has not noticed that “talking about talking” seems to take precedence in many cases over actually doing something):

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